Soo… hello world!!! Gosh it’s been a while🙂
I’m married now!!! Yes! I really am! The big day, the build up… all of it, it’s over now. I’m a wife and a step mom. FOR REAL. The wedding was absolutely amazing. And the honeymoon? Dare I say even better?
I could probably write for days and days about the wedding and honeymoon, but I guess I’ll do my best to just highlight some main stuff.
It was so so sooo far from perfect. We had TONS of glitches, and glaring errors, but in the end…. gosh it was perfect to me🙂
The day started off a bit shakier than I thought, as my mom and myself were supposed to be at the venue, getting our hair and my make up done, at 10:30am. At 10:25, were still at the hotel, and I say “umm we gotta go!” and my mom says “I still have to get into my dress bc I have to pull it over my head!!” So, I said to my momma “Well, I’m gonna go, you catch up with me in a bit.” Going over to the venue, by myself, as the bride, walking into the scene of getting the whole place ready, by myself…. That was a mistake. I walked in, and I was overwhelmed by a few things. First of all, it was beautiful. For what they had already set up, wow, seeing all of my details, linen colors, candles, flowers, etc, coming together.. just WOW. What a moment. Then it occurred to me that the placement of the band’s stage, that we all had meticulously gone over and over and over, was wrong. Also, the parking lot on the ground floor… that my dad had paid for… and was essential for my guests to park in as it was a downtown affair, was full. Full of people who had parked in it for ‘event’ parking due to the parade.. that shut down ALL the streets around the venue… making it impossible for my vendors to get there. At that moment, my wedding planner, and at that point very good friend as we had spent 1.5 years together planning THIS… turned the corner and saw me. OMG MELT DOWNNNN!!! I started bawling and said all in one diarrhea of the mouth run on sentence “the parking lot is full the band is in the wrong place, omg its so beautiful, and i don’t want to lose contact with you and never talk to you again omgg…” LOL melt down. Totally pathetic. She hugged me and said it will ALL be ok I promise. She scurried away to fix a few things and I walked around trying to gather myself. My sister in laws family somehow popped in (how they got up there I’m not sure) and her mom gave me a hug, asking how I Was, to which I responded with more crocodile tears “overwhelmed.” And then… I was ok. That was it. That was the main crying I did for the day. Ok moving on.
So I got my hair and make up done, and it turned out beautiful! My bridesmaids all showed up, done up to the 9’s, looking AMAZING. And there were all the dresses I picked out, the jewelry I got them, the shawls looked amazing. Just a great moment.
Lets move forward to next main disaster. The ceremony was supposed to start at 4 sharp. I was standing in the bridal suite, with my father, hanging out. We were practicing walking around, chatting, laughing, listening to music. Life was good. I felt great. A little shaky and nervous, but it was ok. Suddenly my brother and wedding planner come to the door, and my wedding planner angrily asks my dad to go see her privately. I asked what was wrong, and she lied ‘nothing’. She always tried to protect me like that.. I looked at my brother and said “what happened” and he said “….. ummm.. are you sure you want me to tell you?” ??!??!?!?!? WHAT THE….. I thought maybe my groom was sick, or went to the hospital, or someone got hit by a car? Then they broke it to me that it was 4:15… (really? how time flies…) and that the wedding rings had accidentally been left behind at the hotel. LOLLL WOOPS!! Luckily, the hotel was literally acrossed the street, and someone was running (literally) to get them. I was a bit shocked, and upset, for about 2.5 seconds, then I found it incredibly funny. LOL!! Omg… only me. haha! So… the rings arrive…
and I walked down the aisle to my groom with my father. It was magical… from what I remember. It’s all a blur. Especially because 5 minutes into the ceremony, I started feeling like I was going to pass out. Literally. I Started wobbling on my feet and seeing black dots. My dress tied super tight, the dehydration and hunger (didn’t eat or drink hardly a thing due to nerves) were probably to blame. I ALMOST, ALMOST asked the reverend to stop and let me sit down for a second. I didn’t want to ruin anything, nor make a scene, so I bent my knees (pretty deeply, can’t wait to see that on video), took a deep breath and squeezed my butt cheeks hard (techniques used in the OR when you feel faint). And low and behold I made it through somehow. I came back to life around the time we exchanged vows. When we exchanged rings I was fully present, thank God. I can’t wait to see the video because I very much so don’t remember most of it as I was trying to stay conscious. I remember being super excited, and when he said we were husband and wife, I shook our clasped hands up and down excitedly and smiled, maybe even jumped up and down a bit i think? We kissed, then walked back down the aisle. At that point I got a super great look at who all was there. It was everyone! All of my friends, family, his people, all in the same room. Wowza.
Then pictures. It was FREEZING and we kept it SUPER short. One of jason’s kids had a breakdown, and was crying. He said he was super overhwlmeld bc he had never seen his dad so happy before. To me, it looked like tears of distress, not tears of joy…. but he’s a kid. He was probably feeling lots of mixed emotions. I’m curious if he’ll look weepy in the pictures… poor guy.
Anyway… we went back, and had grand introductions. Huge disaster coming up. The DJ, who was a last minute no one knows him but he’s the only person in the area not booked DJ…. FORGOT to announce one of our couples!! It was super awkward. Everyone noticed, and the couple that was up next to be announced, had to step to the side, confused, and fall back. They never got announced. I wanted to go out there and fix it, but the DJ started plying our introduction song, so we walked out there. I tried to save face by, after we went out there to the crowd, turned back and motioned for them to come out. They walked out, I motioned to them, trying to give them their own huge solo introduction, and I gave them a big hug. I did my best… Then we cut our cake. It was delicious🙂 The DJ was supposed to immediately go into our first dance song… and there was at least a 30 second delay where we stood awkwardly around.. LOL OMG seriously people… lol! But, we danced to our first song. then my dad and i danced, then my groom and his mom danced.
Dinner happened, then speeches, and it was all wonderful. We did our best to make our way around to say hi to everyone but good lord, that was way harder said than done. Probably to make up for the somewhat terrible DJ experience, the band was ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!!! We splurged and got one of the best cover bands in the area, and they were PHENOMINAL. I can’t even describe how well they kept the party going, until the very wee hours. Just, unbelievable. It ended up being the most epic wedding in the history of EVER, due to the beautiful location, decor, food and entertainment. It couldn’t have been better! well… maybe minus those little disasters I told you about.. but hey.. it gave it character😀
So the worrying I did, for close to a year and a half, about fitting into my dress, being a fat bride, looking terrible, being uncomfortable… it was all for absolutely nothing. In my humble opinion, I have to say that I Loved the way I looked. My hair and make up were beautiful, and the dress? stunning. Absolutely amazing. It came together so well. The seamstress ended up making it fit me PERFECTLY and gosh was it beautiful. I may have been a size 12/14, and 5 lbs away from being ‘obese’ on my wedding day, but I pulled it off graciously. We don’t have any professional pix back yet, but a few of the ones friends snapped.. looked pretty great🙂
Monday morning we flew out to St. Thomas for our honeymoon. I realized about half way through our 7 day adventure, that never have I ever had him totally to myself for that extended period of time. He has his kids, and they are number one as they should be. But for 7 days, I was spoiled, and it was JUST us. We called and face timed with them on a couple of occasions.. but he had no work, no kids, no baseball, no coaching, no nothing. Just 7 days of pure, reckless, selfish time spent together. It was magical. St. Thomas is beautiful if you’ve never been. I got an incredible deal. Back in march when we decided to go to St. Thomas, I went online and onto the Ritz Carlton’s website, and found a resort view room, for when we needed it, book 7 nights… 179 a night. I figured it was probably a good deal, so we booked. I can’t even tell you how lucky I apparently got. I went online during the trip to see prices at the hotel, and they started at $390 a night, all the way up to $1,190 a night!!! WHAT?!??! We are more like a $179 a night TOPS for an extravagant trip like our honeymoon.. so we really want to go back, but what are the odds of me finding a deal like that again? ever?
Needless to say, everything was incredibly expensive, especially at the hotel, but we luckily had the money. We decided to, within reason, just enjoy ourselves, and spend the cash we had brought with us from the wedding. We ate at fancy restaurants sometimes, we shopped and my hubby bought me a beautiful ring, we just enjoyed ourselves. We found this amazing local pizza place and when expensive fresh fish got a bit tiring, we ordered a $10 pizza delivered to room. We lived it up, and really existed in each and every moment, with each other. I am so thankful, and feel so blessed that we had that opportunity and really started our marriage off on SUCH a good, fun, happy, relaxing note. Our view from the hotel was amazing. It was technically ‘resort view’ but you could see the ocean to the left.
We spent one day at this place on St. John’s called Trunk Bay. It was the most beautiful place I’ve ever seen, ever.
We started our honeymoon in this hammock, and ended it there too. Here’s a last day-
We left on Monday morning.. and good thing. St Thomas and the rest of the carribean just got rocked by Tropical Storm Gonzola. Can’t say I’m happy to be home… but I’m sure glad we went when we did! The weather was perfect, absolutely perfect and this week there is terrible.
Being home sucks. The wedding being over is slightly devastating. I feel myself becoming a bit depressed. Being thrashed back in to the real world, MINUS wedding planning, really really really really REALLY sucks. 100% of my energy was focused, for the better part of 1.5 years, on planning 7 hours. I’m finding it really hard at this point, and that there is a giant hole in my life. And it makes me want to cry. Quite often.
BUT… here’s me, positive polly, trying to view the glass as half full. This is a new beginning. I have all the time in the world right now for a couple things.
My health. I have seriously slacked on my supplement intake (namely iron, C, and B’s, that I need desperately) and my food choices. The weeks leading up to the wedding was a crapshoot, at best, and lets just say we really indulged on the honeymoon. As we should have. But now, we are back. And I need to get on track. I was struggling to find something, some sort of system, that was going to work for me, namely my allergies. As a reminder, my true allergy list includes, but is not limited to, Almonds, Corn, Tomatoes, Soy, Milk, Wheat, and Eggs. My sensitivity list is a mile long, but I’m going to try to focus on the allergies for now. It’s been difficult finding a system that works with all of these things. If you try vegan, theres a lot of soy and wheat. Try Vegetarian, and theres a lot of eggs and dairy. Avoiding meat is not the best option for me, I’ve come to realize, unfortunately. By my husbands suggestion, I have been reading Mark Sisson’s “Primal Blueprint”. It’s a lot like a paleo lifestyle, but with an emphasis on intake of vegetable and some fruit. You focus on lean protein intake, plant and animal products, nuts, seeds, healthy fats. You keep your intake of carbs (from veggies and fruit) to 50-100 for weight loss, then 100-150 for maintenance. You eat 0.7 grams of protein per lb of lean body weight. You eat the rest of your target calories from fat. It’s unlike anything I’ve tried, read, or trusted. It seems to align with lots of my goals, including avoiding my allergies and sensitivities, lose fat, not be completely slave to eating certain things at certain times, stabilize blood glucose levels, etc. It’s going to be a BIG adjustment, but I want to try to go for it. I’m still reading the book and trying to come up with a plan, for me. You exercise, very often, doing slow movements like walking, hiking, raking leaves, etc most days of the week. You do the primal movements (squats, pull ups, push ups, and planks) 2-3 times a week. You sprint once a week. You drink water when you feel like you need to. You sleep more than you’re probably sleeping now. You get enough sunlight to maintain a bit of a tan. It all really makes sense, and is very…. earthy. I’m excited, but its going to be a big change. I’m not looking forward to whats going to come in the first few days, weeks, of cutting back carbohydrate intake. It ain’t gonna be pretty, but I know i need to do it. It’s going to be an adjustment of how much I sit around, to finding some sort of daily exercise to do in this small town. I’m assuming walking is going to be my best bet. I’ll have to gear up for the winter coming…
There’s no reason that I can’t take on the issue of my health, full speed ahead, at this point. No reason. I need to shed about 25 lbs of body fat, increase my strength, build my endurance, and start feeling better. I suppose its time to get primal🙂
Well… cheers.. to good health, new beginnings, and filling up the holes in your life with that which will make your existence exponentially better.